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We've Moved [27 Jul 2003|09:55pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I've Moved! :) My new address is:


http://www.livejournal.com/~chadhorn/


Please update your bookmarks! ;)

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New Webcam for the New Year!!!! [31 Dec 2002|09:18pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Hey everyone. I just wanted to let you know that I now have a website online that has my webcam on it when I'm online. The site address is:

http://chadwick.pagiz.com/.


Hope everyone enjoys! :oP

Chadwick

PS - HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

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Kentucky [26 Nov 2002|03:01am]
Things I've learned about Kentucky .....
- Possums sleep in the middle of the road with their feet in the air.
- There are 5,000 types of snakes and 4,998 live in Kentucky.
- There are 10,000 types of spiders. All 10,000 live in Kentucky, plus a couple no one's seen before.
- Squirrels will eat anything.
- Unknown critters love to dig holes under tomato plants.
- Raccoons will test your crop of melons and let you know when they are ripe.
- If it grows, it sticks; if it crawls, it bites.
- A tractor is NOT an all-terrain vehicle. They do get stuck.
- Onced and Twiced are words.
- It is not a shopping cart, it is a buggy.
- Fire ants consider your flesh as a picnic.
- People actually grow and eat okra.
- Fixinto is one word.
- There ain't no such thing as "lunch". There's only dinner and then there's supper.
- Tea is appropriate for all meals and you start drinking it when you're 2.
- Backards and forwards means I know everything about you.
- 'Jeet? is actually a phrase meaning "Did you eat?"
- You don't have to wear a watch because it doesn't matter what time it is. You work until you're done or it's too dark to see.

You know you're from Kentucky if:
1. You measure distance in minutes.
2. You've ever had to switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day.
3. Stores don't have bags; they have sacks.
4. You see a car running in the parking lot at the store with no one in it, no matter what time of the year.
5. You use "fix" as a verb. Example: I am fixing to go to the store.
6. All the festivals across the state are named after a fruit, vegetable, grain, insect or animal
7. You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked.
8. You carry jumper cables in your car ... for your OWN car.
9. You know what "cow tipping" is.
10. You only own four spices: salt, pepper, chili powder, and catsup.
11. The local papers cover national and international news on one page but requires 6 pages for local gossip and sports.
12. You think that the first day of deer season is a national holiday.
13. You find 100 degrees Fahrenheit "a little warm."
14. You know all four seasons: Almost summer, summer, still summer, and Christmas.
15. You know whether another Kentuckian is from east, west, or middle Kentucky as soon as they open their mouth.
16. Going to Wal-Mart is a favorite past-time known as "goin wal-martin" or off to "Wally World."
17. You describe the first cool snap (below 70 degrees) as good chili weather.
18. A carbonated soft drink isn't a soda, cola, or pop... it's a Coke, regardless of brand or flavor. Example "What kinna coke you want?"
19. Fried Catfish is the other white meat.
20. You understand these jokes and forward them to your friends from Kentucky.
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19 Here I Come! [27 Sep 2002|01:08am]
[ mood | horny ]

My birthday is on the 3rd of October. Get me something nice... OR ELSE!

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You Know You Want It.... [06 Aug 2002|04:22pm]
[ mood | busy ]

This auction is for BOTH NewTek Lightwave 6.0 and 7.0 (Upgrade). This software is registered and all ownership rights will be transferred.


I worked in the special effects department of Manix studios (worked on Matrix I) in California and when I moved here to KY, I had no use for this software as I now work in a slightly different field of computers. I have another copy of Lightwave so I really don't need two... :o) This software is very cool once you get to understand everything and is a very good learning tool if you are just starting out in the graphics industry. I will include the two in-depth manuals that came with the programs as well as 2 additional books which I have purchased since I started working with this program.


Below you will find a few examples of the work which I have done with this program. These images are from a game which I currently have under development. I have to keep the actual image size small because of bandwidth issues on my server but if you email me I can send images around 260x200px in size. PLEASE WAIT FOR PAGE IMAGE TO FULLY LOAD!


Cluster of Previous Work Created with NewTek Lightwave!!
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=2043981568


Thanks for taking the time out to view my auction listing and have a wonderful day!


~Chadwick Horn

chadwick@pagiz.com

www.pagiz.com


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Bonjour Old Profile [04 Aug 2002|11:01pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Goodbye old AIM profile... Hello new one...

If only I could love you but for one day... that day will be the day which I live for... - Chadwick


The guy who invented the first wheel was an idiot. The guy who invented the other three, he was the genius.The optimist says the glass is half full. The pessimist says the glass is half empty. The pragmatist, being thirsty, drinks the water.


The irony of life is that no one gets out alive... 


Kentucky
Where men are men and sheep are scared.
Home of big dicks, small brains, and lots and lots of farmland in between.
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[21 Jul 2002|08:10pm]
[ mood | amused ]

GOD Sees you...
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Poem: My Angel's Tears [21 Jul 2002|05:58pm]
[ mood | sad ]


Every night as I go to bed,
I see a vision in my head,
An angel comes from up above,
To show to me the truth of love.
This angel of mine with eyes so blue,
Has hair of fire, and purpose true,
And when he smiles the world is bright,
But love must wait till the time is right.

But then I strayed for I never knew,
That my angel�s love was oh so true,
I loved another, or so I believed,
And turned my back on my angel in his time of need.
I hurt him so, this angel of mine,
A gift from the Gods, his love so divine,
I know now that our love is true,
Oh help me God, what can I do?

I need my angel, and love him so,
But he hurts so much and can�t let go,
I need him to know he�s the love of my life,
And always has been throughout the strife.
If he�ll forgive my mistake and come back to me,
We�ll walk together through life no matter what may be,
And never again through all the years
Will I ever cause my angel�s tears.


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Joke: The Vibrator [16 Jul 2002|12:49am]
[ mood | amused ]

As the woman passed her daughter's closed bedroom door, she heard a strange buzzing noise coming from within. Opening the door, she observed her daughter giving herself a real workout with a vibrator. Shocked, she asked, "What in the world are you doing?" The daughter replied, "Mom, I'm thirty-five years old, unmarried, and this thing is about as close as I'll ever get to a husband. Please, go away and leave me alone."

The next day, the girl's father heard the same buzz coming from the other side of the closed bedroom door. Upon entering the room, he observed his daughter making passionate love to her vibrator. To his query as to what she was doing, the daughter said, "Dad, I'm thirty-five years old, unmarried, and this thing is about as close as I'll ever get to a husband Please! Go away and leave me alone."

A couple days later, the wife and daughter came home from a shopping trip, placed the groceries on the kitchen counter, and heard that buzzing noise coming from, of all places, the family room. They entered that area and observed the husband/father sitting on the couch, staring at the TV. The vibrator was next to him on the couch, buzzing like crazy. The wife asked, "What the hell are you doing?"

The husband replied, "I'm watching the ball game with my son-in-law."

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Heh.... [12 Jul 2002|03:33pm]
[ mood | amused ]

The Top 15 Redneck Porno Movies

15) I Know You Done Your Sister Last Summer
14) Turn Her and Hooch
13) Urban Cow, Boy!
12) Debbie Does Dullards
11) I Am Curious, Ol' Yeller
10) 9 1/2 Teeth
9) The Silence of the Sheep (God Willing)
8) Nasty NASCAR Nimphama--, uh, Nymfama--, uh, Crazy Nekkid Gals!
7) Deep Goat
6) Crouchin' Brother, His'n Sister
5) Auntie Get Your Gums
4) The Girl Who Could Not Run Faster Than Her Brothers
3) Behind the Green Teeth
2) Bob and Carol and Bessie and Babe
1) Three Men and a Beatty

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My Fellow Countrymen.... [09 Jul 2002|12:46am]
[ mood | bored ]

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Just another face in the crowd? Certainly not! You're a people person, and you like everyone around to be your biggest fan. You may be called a sellout, attention whore, or prima donna, but anyone who says that is just jealous of your vibrant and outgoing personality. You're concerned with appearances and with public opinion of yourself, regardless of whether you're in a school or work environment. You have lots of friends and you're hardly ever bored. You're in good company with talk show hosts and politcians worldwide.


Be cool! Take the What Do You Want Out Of Life? Quiz

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[08 Jul 2002|03:55am]
[ mood | bitchy ]

PEOPLE HAVE BEEN EMAILING ME WANTING AN EXPLAINATION OF WHAT THIS MEANS. I HAVE WRITTEN A RESPONSE BELOW IT IN LETTRE FORM TO THE PERSON WHOM THIS POEM IS DIRECTED.


I'll tell you why I dont wanna know where you are.

I got a joke I've been dying to tell you.
Silent kid is looking down and back beyond to make a noise I've kept so quiet.
Kept it from you; it's been so long.

I'm not whats missing from your life now.
I could never be the puzzle pieces.
Say the gardens drunken just to see what you could stand.
Before you could do as the devil pleases.
Give up the fame that you love.

No one deserves it.

The first time I saw you I knew it would never last.
I'm not half of what I wish I was.
I'm so angry, I dont think it'll ever pass.
That was bad news for you just because I never knew to hurt you.




RESPONSE



Dear Love:

I don't want to know where you are. I have been trying to find you amidst all of the confusion to no avail. Love, why do you hurt me so much? I can't live without you but with you I want to die.

Love, I've got a joke I've been dying just to tell you. It's taken someone of insignificance to make me realize just who you are and how you have hurt me. That someone has awakened something for only I have know. Something I never meant to be discovered.

For you, Love, I'm not what you have missing in you "life" now. I never was and never will be. You have closed me out for the last time and I promise to never let you back in. I can never fit into place correctly with you for you are as random as the puzzle pieces strewn about on the table before me where i write.

You can tell me things which only we could understand on behalf of one another, but I don't even want that. You have lied to me for the last time and as promised, you will never be in the life of mine again. You may have been able to lie to me and tell me what I wanted to hear, but faith is on my side. I found out how you really felt about me and you will never EVER make me feel that way again. Love, you are the one at loss now. You chose your life and ways over mine - so give up what you thought you had with me. Give up the fact of ever being loved by me again. Give up what you have nourished upon until now.

No one, especially you, deserves me. God made me for that special person which would make me the happiest man in the world. He made you to be the loneliest.

From the moment we first spoke on the phone to the moment we first met, I knew we would never be compatible. Our differences were as clear as night from day. Granted, I'm not the best thing that can be found in this world, but I'm me. I am more than you ever was and that you ever will be. I know how to love and when to show it. I know how to care for, which, you lacked. I'm so mad at you right now it will never go away. I am more mad at me though for submitting myself to you. For actually trying to make us something which I knew would not last from the very start of what we had.

You know what Love, you are truely the one at loss here. I cherished the ground you walked on and you took advantage of me when I was least aware. If only I had taken the first step never to have met you, you would at least still have the ability to have been loved me the way I did you once you grew up. This is the point where I should appologize as I did in every argument we ever had - but you're not worth it.

~Chadwick



PS - May the best of your days be the worst of my nights.
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Joke: Push in the Dark [07 Jul 2002|07:51pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

A man and his wife are awakened at 3 o'clock in the morning by a loud pounding on the door. The man gets up and goes to the door where a drunken stranger, standing in the pouring rain, is asking for a push.

"Not a chance in hell," says the husband, "it is 3 o'clock in the morning!" He slams the door and returns to bed.

"Who was that?" asked his wife. "Just some drunk guy asking for a push," he answers.

"Did you help him?" she asks.

"No, I did not, it is 3 in the morning and it is pouring out!"

"Well, you have a short memory," says his wife, "can't you remember about three months ago when we broke down and those two guys helped us? You should be ashamed of yourself. Get out there and help him!"

The man does as he is told, gets dressed, and goes out into the pounding rain.

He calls out into the dark, "Hello, are you still there?"

"Yes," comes back the answer.

"Do you still need a push?" calls out the husband.

"Yes, please!" comes the reply from the dark.

"Where are you?" asks the husband.

"Over here on the swing!" replies the drunk.

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Mr. Preppy [04 Jul 2002|03:55am]
[ mood | bored ]

I&apos;m so preppy!
Take the The "What Teen Label Do You Fit Into Most?" Quiz!
by antiperfect
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Sharon Osbourne Battling Cancer [04 Jul 2002|03:17am]
Sharon Osbourne, the take-no-prisoners matriarch who effortlessly deals with her rebellious kids and a zoned-out husband on MTV's The Osbournes, is in for her toughest challenge yet: cancer.
Sharon, the wife and manager of metal pioneer-turned TV dad Ozzy Osbourne, will undergo an operation today for "a treatable form of cancer," the couple's publicist, Lisa Vega, has announced.

Vega would not reveal what kind of cancer Osbourne is battling, but the publicist says, "[Sharon] is expected to make a full recovery.

"She has the loving support of her husband and three children who are by her side at this time," Vega says.

The Osbournes celebrate their 20-year wedding anniversary on Thursday.

Meantime, MTV released a statement saying, "We know Sharon will conquer this with the same tenacity and vibrancy she approaches everything else in her life. Our thoughts are with Sharon and the entire Osbourne family and we send her our love and support for a complete recovery."

As a result of the surgery, the Osbournes are postpoing the first two dates of the rocker's Ozzfest 2002 tour--Saturday's show in Bristow, Virginia, and Sunday's stop in Pittsburgh. Both will be rescheduled, says Vega.

Until MTV put her family at the forefront of American pop culture, Sharon Osbourne was best known for her behind-the-scenes role as a rock manager and mom. She has masterminded the "Prince of F---ing Darkness' " career, including the mega-successful Ozzfest shows, while tending to bayonet-toting son, Jack, 16, and pink-haired princess cum aspiring pop star Kelly, 17, and oldest child, Aimee, 18, who didn't want to be a part of the series' inaugural season but is rumored to be making an appearance next season. (Ozzy also has an adult son, Louis, from his first marriage.)

Sharon also managed the Smashing Pumpkins until 2000, when she suddenly quit with the now legendary statement: "I must resign today, due to medical reasons--Billy Corgan was making me sick!"

Ozzy and Sharon, the now estranged daughter of the rocker's onetime promoter Don Arden, met in 1979--a tempestuous year for the rocker. Not only was he booted by the legendary metal band he fronted, Black Sabbath, but he was also booted by his first wife, Thelma Reilly, after eight years of marriage.

Three years later, the new couple married in Maui, with Sharon taking over as Ozzy's manager and getting his career back on track. Apart from a 1989 incident in which a binge-drinking Ozzy tried to choke her--an episode that landed him in rehab for three months--the couple have been inseparable...and unstoppable.

It was Sharon who hatched the idea for The Osbournes, after MTV visited the brood for an episode of another series, MTV Cribs. The show has generated the biggest ratings in MTV's history and made the whole family (in)famous.

There's the hit Osbourne Family Album soundtrack, featuring Kelly's cover of Madonna's "Papa Don't Preach" (which earned her a record deal), a pair of upcoming books from publisher Simon & Shuster, a barrage of merchandising deals, and even a dinner invitation from President George W. Bush, who was impressed with the clan's family values.

Sharon Osbourne has, like Ozzy, battled drug and alcohol abuse, but has been sober for years. She recently underwent a gastic bypass operation to shrink the size of her stomach. The now slender woman credited the procedure with helping her lose 90 pounds from her once 224-pound bulk.

No word whether her real-life cancer battle will pop up on the tube as a storyline on The Osbournes' second season that Sharon negotiated with MTV for a reputed $20 million.

Filming is supposed to take place at the family farm in England later this summer and the new season will debut in the fall.
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Movies: Alone. [22 Jun 2002|07:46pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I'm going to go to the movies alone; again. Anyone wanna see Lilo and Stitch or Minority Report with a lonely fag? I promise I wont bite much... :o/

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And Life Goes On.... [22 Jun 2002|07:38pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Isn't it amazing about how fast emotions can change especially when regarding "love?"
I have been reinstalling all of my old programs from CDs and Zip disks and stumbled upon some old conversation I had back in January with this SOMEONE that I had kept for sentimental reasons. I really love(d) this person and I know he knew but it doesn't matter. It just hurts he could have said he loved me when I was going to move with him but now doesn't. Ah well, life goes on I guess.

I'm really homesick from my oldish new home - San Francisco. This song I'm listening to isn't helping much either! :-(

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Help! [14 Jun 2002|12:43am]
[ mood | sad ]

How do you tell someone how much you feel about them when they have a boyfriend whom they're happy with? At that, how do you do it when you have been in a relationship with them in the past and feel that you have messed up by "escaping" from it?

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What CAN I Do?!? [28 Mar 2002|11:25am]
[ mood | confused ]

I am in yet another asphyxiated dilemma with the people I like. I have like three guys that I have the hots for and only one of them likes me. I shouldn't say "The Hots" but rather the trust. All three are good friends and they were there for me when everyone else turned their backs in my direction. They were the ones saying "Life Will Get Better" and "Just Give It Time and Things Will Start to Heal." They were also the ones that said "I Love You" and gave me an innocent kiss on the cheek...

I miss my friends. These three are my true friends. Yeah, I have others... but these guys are the greatest people I could ever imagine having and it hurts that since we "grew up" and "moved on" that we never talk anymore. Oh well... I just need to catch up on the growing up part I guess...

Anyways, I'm off to get my haircut and going to work. I'll write again l8r as I need to vent my personal frustrations to someone/thing.

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This Noving Crap is Getting Old... and I HATE Being Alone! [18 Mar 2002|02:44pm]
I'm starting to dislike moving. I have YET AGAIN moved to another location. I am now in Silicon Valley - Santa Clara Area. My family, for some reason, thought I was seriously going to go to L.A. to meet up with a guy I had onlinetalked to online for a few days. I mean get real. I was desperate to get out of the place I was staying (with family) for the mere fact I want to get out on my own, and when I told them about it, they like overreacted A LOT and was going to force me to go back to Kentucky. Hell no!

I didn't know what to do so I decided to move in with a friend and pay rent as to go back to where i came from. This move is the 5th one in the past year. Anymore I dont know if I should even unpack you know?

Anyways, I am safe now and I am out on my own. Right now I believe the only thing I have going for me is a few prayers and a lot of hope. I don't know what to do in my life now but I'm sure I will survive. Hell, I've made it this far... why would this little hurdle stand in my way?

I hate being alone. I believe I have found someone that loves me as much as I love him. He is a wonderful person and I hope that I wont mess this one up. If he is reading he knows who he is but I would just like him to know that he is very special to me and I would hope to have the honour of having him as the ONE which I can love...
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